thoughts on period sex?  I was kinda hoping to escalate things tonight but SHARK WEEK. 

so?

so last night I’m giving him these big googly eyes and holding his hand after the movie and he’s all “I like you a lot and I’m super attracted to you but I’m not very good at expressing that stuff physically.”

and I might as well be saying “come up and see my etchings,” and he’s all gentlemanly and giving me a kiss goodbye.

aaaaagh.

NEVER LEAVE ME, VIBRATOR.

I changed my sheets for this guy and he didn’t even go in for a kiss at the end of the night.  I get the feeling he’s legitimately the take-it-slow type, and I’m weirdly okay with that and want to see him again. 

I think I actually like this one.  whenever we do bang I’ll actually want to stick around for the morning after.

(of course then I bought more batteries on the way home and gave myself several orgasms in his honor.)

do I leave my room a mess before my date tomorrow in an attempt at self-control (didn’t work last week), or clean it so that if I do go all firstdateslut and bring him back he won’t realize what a slob I am?

last night he thought I was falling asleep in his arms.  I was actually just trying to avoid interacting with him.

I need to start having sex with people I actually like again.

I’m kind of terrible at people; I’ve somehow lost track of how to go from friendliness to friendship.  but I have this incredible desire to connect. 

this may explain why I just got off thinking not about porn or past sexual encounters, but about a guy I’ve yet to meet in person and the fact that he wrote me a funny little poem the other day.

I’m not sure if I really want to see him again or I’m just terrified of being alone.

the biggest issue I have with dating/sleeping with nonsmokers is that moment when I want a postcoital cigarette and they just want to stay in bed.

the issue with being single is that I’m much more likely to find someone to fuck than someone to sleep with.
sometimes I just really want tangled limbs and someone to fight over the pillows with.

you know that whole thing about how women know whether they’re sleeping with their date at the beginning of the night?
I may be the only one who lies to herself about it.